i can’t expect her to understand me and choose me? really?
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i am literally right there at the finish line. literally.
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i can’t expect her to want to be happy with ME?
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i’ve been honest this entire time. there is no understanding here. none.
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you want honesty? i can’t win. period. there is nothing i can do about this. there never was. i just can’t win.
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no matter how hard i try what ever ground i give i am always the loser. there can be no understanding. no coming to terms. i just always needed to much and tried to be understood in the worst ways and then just start panicking trying to make her happy then shit just gets fucked up and i was already vulnerable. letting the wrong shit in under the worst vibes i could be under. the fear of losing love most cherished. shit happened anyway though huh? this is fucking bullshit. i never wanted this. i just wanted to fix me so i could be and give the best version of my self. i just can’t win.
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and all i can do is say it is what it is cause really really? i can’t do shit. i wanted her to be my BABY. not this. i am a fucking failure.
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honestly? i can be as mad as i wanna be cause nothing about my life is what i want it to be.
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to be honest? that shit broke me so bad i broke down and had to hold me mom for a while i cried on her shoulder. you wanna know how much of a fucking i felt like? cause this is what i fucking deserve? it ain’t even really a question i’m just saying really? fucking fuck fuck fuck yo.
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and you know what? it’s too late. there is no going back from this. i’ve lost completely.
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i can’t expect her to understand me and choose me? really?
i am literally right there at the finish line. literally.
i can’t expect her to want to be happy with ME?
i’ve been honest this entire time. there is no understanding here. none.
you want honesty? i can’t win. period. there is nothing i can do about this. there never was. i just can’t win.
no matter how hard i try what ever ground i give i am always the loser. there can be no understanding. no coming to terms. i just always needed to much and tried to be understood in the worst ways and then just start panicking trying to make her happy then shit just gets fucked up and i was already vulnerable. letting the wrong shit in under the worst vibes i could be under. the fear of losing love most cherished. shit happened anyway though huh? this is fucking bullshit. i never wanted this. i just wanted to fix me so i could be and give the best version of my self. i just can’t win.
and all i can do is say it is what it is cause really really? i can’t do shit. i wanted her to be my BABY. not this. i am a fucking failure.
honestly? i can be as mad as i wanna be cause nothing about my life is what i want it to be.
to be honest? that shit broke me so bad i broke down and had to hold me mom for a while i cried on her shoulder. you wanna know how much of a fucking i felt like? cause this is what i fucking deserve? it ain’t even really a question i’m just saying really? fucking fuck fuck fuck yo.
and you know what? it’s too late. there is no going back from this. i’ve lost completely.