In 2023, you completed a trilogy of releases under the name Agust D, your alter ego. Did that give you a sense of completion, and that you were ready to move on, both in life and as an artist?

Yeah, and I went to the military right after that. So I did feel quite resolved after finishing the trilogy. I felt like Agust D was wrapped up.… After that final album, I don’t have any negative feelings left in my body.

– Rolling Stones Interview

Reading this made me genuinely emotional. I found Bangtan and this community ten years ago because I stumbled across an Agust D reaction video, and that one moment completely changed everything for me. Agust D has always been a catharsis for me, a safe place to feel things.

Knowing that he feels resolved, that he wrapped up that chapter of himself without any lingering negativity feels makes me soo happy. That alter ego existed because he needed it to and maybe, in a weird way, so did we.

But now that he's found peace, there's something beautiful about not needing it anymore.
I'm going to need 10 business days to recover.

by 50shadesof_brown

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  1. 50shadesof_brown on

    Also to add, one of my greatest regrets in life is that I missed the concerts. I was not in the right state of mind, mentally or physically, to make it work. To everyone had the opportunity to witness it, you have won.

  2. HiThereImNewHere on

    The colossal meltdown when Daechwita dropped and the fanart renaissance it created was a wild thing to witness. We were all feral that month.

    Also flying to Singapore for a single day for the D-Day concert was ridiculous but I have zero regrets on that one. Met some really cool people (u/pucchin_purin saved my life), saw an immaculate setlist with my own eyes, got the damn guitar picks, and I will treasure that memory for the rest of my army life.

  3. So I feel like my story was similar to yours. I found Bangtan 8 years ago and really liked them. But it was Agust D who grabbed me by the ankles and dragged me down the rabbithole.

    Watching the story evolve over the years and come to their conclusion has been bittersweet. I feel like Agust ^(istg if this phone doesn’t stop trying to spell the month like it doesn’t know my priorities by now grrr) D really expressed emotions and thoughts that I couldn’t. I’m a little sad to see him go.

    Otoh, I’m so glad Yoongi doesn’t need this alter ego anymore. He’s always struck me as being so measured, thorough, intentional, and mature. I doubt I can resolve my thoughts and feelings the way he has, but I still feel proud of the work he put in. I actually feel even more inspired to pour myself into my art even more so maybe I’ll have a touch less inner rage.

    And I’ll never get over him learning a sword dance. 🤌🏾🤌🏾🤌🏾

    ![gif](giphy|kDlnuLsAQwoeGmRxVw)

  4. Affectionate_Try3068 on

    Watching the d2 pictures come out and everyone wondering if that was yoongi or jungkook

  5. Agust D & Yoongi were critical to my mental health in the collective shitshow that was 2020. I think i survived that year thanks to People, Eight, & Dynamite.

    But back in 2016, I fell in love with So Far Away, at the novel experience of an artist bitterly talking abt not having a dream & just existing. My current wallpaper are the famous dream lyrics from So Far Away. To watch him live, singing those same lyrics to us as part of Snooze, will always be a highlight.

    Also: since D-Day was the first solo tour, it was so lovely seeing him become a more confident performer and just be so embraced by army with all the little rituals & practices that organically came up (no iphone, only galaxy!, the barking!, adding “i’m thinking about MIN YOONGI to the SDL lyrics, etc)

  6. Dizzy-Young6184 on

    The D-DAY tour was my first ever BTS concert after becoming a fan in early 2018. I had to fly to the US to see it and it was everything and more. The concert was perfect and armys were so kind and welcoming 😭

  7. I resonate with what you said so much. I read the interview too and what he said really hit with what energy I’ve noticed from him since being back. Yoongi and Joon’s RS interviews both made me cry a good bit.

    But to answer your question, there are so many favorite memories from the first time I saw the video for AgustD and he was ripping into the industry to then ending the trilogy with a MV like Amygdala was really cathartic.

    It’s strange but my own healing path lines up with his in a way. I watched the Amygdala MV and listened to the song so many times. So I’d say those 2 are my best memories. His music and that trilogy helped me process and close my own door to a lot of that anger and pain of my own. And I know a lot of people hoped after the whole 🛴 incident on break that he would come back and cuss everyone out again but after watching the end of his Dday tour and that door I had a feeling he probably wouldn’t. That he’s let a lot of that anger go. Not saying it’s still there. Anyone can get angry but he feels healed from it and honestly that makes me want to cry all over again 🥹🥲

    Sorry for the rant 😅

  8. Winter_Moon_336 on

    “Amygdala” and the MV are deeply meaningful to me. The MV is to this day the most accurate (to me) representation of what it feels like to be trapped in your head, stuck in a seemingly endless cycle of reliving the past and questioning every decision you’ve ever made. As someone who deals with depressive episodes and obsessive thoughts, I felt so seen by that MV. It really made me feel less alone. I cried when I saw the clips from his final concert, when he was finally able to walk through that door…

    Thank you, Agust D. 💜

    ![gif](giphy|582B3lS7DmFSsfVASV|downsized)

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