Was going through my old data and found many screenshots of my stan account(s). It was a time when I had a stan account and I spend 7 hours/day on stan twitter (now it's suspended/deactivated & lost forever)
I find myself being in awe at my old self who was full of enthusiasm and energy – streaming, voting, promoting, going gaga over them, listening to the whole album within an hour of release, catching all their lives and videos. It made me almost reminded of pure love or something like that haha. At no point I believed that I was gonna marry them or that they are all single, but just knowing their presence brought so much positivity to me it almost felt like magic.
While I know people say there are better things to spend your youth on than stan twitter (now X), I don't have any regret. I made wonderful friends, funnily enough never bothered to get into fan wars, and always had a place to scream my thoughts at.
I'm glad to look back at these memories as something cherishable. I will never forget the kind of precious love EXO filled my heart with – their voices, personality, jokes, presence.
I still love them but now that I am older, stanning takes a backseat but knowing I can always go back to them and count on them for giving me a good laugh or uplifting my mood, it's already something worth holding onto.
EXO will always be my first love. This is not a goodbye letter, I'm here to stay hehe. EXO saranghaja! 💛
(I'm not sure I could share this here, but it seems like the best place to share this with so many EXOL who i bet feel similarly)
by annie6104
2 Comments
Reading your post made me smile. Not because I used to feel the same way, but because I’m currently feeling the things you once felt in the past. I don’t have a Twitter account, and since I’m older now, I also don’t have that much time to dedicate to fangirling anymore. But I still spend most of my free time here or on Instagram watching EXO content or listening to their songs. Seeing that someone else walked the same path I’ve only been on for the past two and a half years long before I did, and reading that EXO has had the same impact on all of us at different stages of our lives, genuinely makes me happy. Thank you for sharing this.
This is exactly how I feel. Everything you said resonates with me. I joined stan Twitter in 2021 after getting into EXO as a first-time K-pop fan. I loved them so much (and still do). But now, life has moved on, and I have other priorities.